I am pleased to tell you all that Krishna has blessed me with a job! Thank You, Lord. I doubted You but like always, You have proved me wrong.
The job role is that of a Market Research Assistant in an international company here in Dubai. The good thing about this office is the casual atmosphere so I don't need to wear formal clothes. And it's a desk job so I don't have to go into unfamiliar environments. So this is great considering the fact that I have OCD and these were some of my main concerns.
It is much much better than the other jobs I had been offered. It is in an accessible area, close to some of my friends' offices, and best of all - they work NORMAL hours i.e. 40 hours/week. Most companies work 6 days/week and 10 hours/day. This again is another blessing because working 6 days a week would really kill me!
I'm beginning to think that Krishna was just waiting until I was ready to work. By His mercy, my mental and physical health has been slowly getting better. In the middle I decided to quit looking for a job because it felt like it was too much to handle. But recently I started going for interviews again. And obviously I was upset when I didn't receive callbacks. In retrospect I'm glad I didn't because at that time, working would have been quite difficult and those offices were so far away and not of very good standards (in terms of my hygiene obsessions). Those jobs required traveling and moving around a lot and that's something I'm not ready for yet.
The pay isn't a lot, as compared to what some of my friends are getting. But honestly, after about 9 months of looking for a job, I'm grateful. Grateful to Krishna and grateful to all of you who have wished me well. My family could use the financial help and I could use the experience. My therapist said it would be a good idea to work because it would put me in situations where I have to deal with things. For instance if I get dirty, I can't shower there. So I have to sit through it, do my work and then go home. So it will leave me no choice but to deal with it and make my peace with it.
Well let's see how it goes. My first day of work is going to be on October 2nd. Here's hoping everything goes well and Krishna stays right there with me like a parent stays with a child on their first day of school. I hope I'll be able to do this job well and make the most of it, and also, that the bathrooms are beautiful and to my liking!
