Prayer Request for Lost Gopi

Lost Gopi said:

Drainpiper , i feel like crying. Okay, i am. Right now, i am so upset about something at work. It hurts when people turn out to be so different from who I thought they were.. And being misunderstood makes me feel like.. :( These few months thats all I have been - Misunderstood - I am actually amazed at how everything I do or say seems to go horribly wrong somehow. And people do these seemingly harmless things that lands me in the most awkward situations. I am shocked at the double standards of people at work, the backstabbing ...and people acting like so immature..and yet I am the one left feeling dumb. I know its like that at most places. But when it completely ruins my chances at some good thing that had a possibility of happening ..I am so deflated..and sad.
While I sit there feeling dazed and amazed I feel like suchh a naive little girl !! I come across as such no doubt . Ugh! And I hate that feeling! 
The one main thing that Krishna says in the Gita , about doing your best and not desiring the results..Wow thats hard! Not material things, but I still find it hard to accept that when it comes to people ! I wish Krishna was real , like really here real :( and would just be my friend for once. I havent felt close to Krishna in ages. I wish people like him existed now . I can never be annoyed at him..or blame him . I believe that what we get depends on our past karma and on our reactions to life . I kind of wish I was different so that at least the second part would make me feel worthwile and happy about myself. 
Thanks for listening and can you please pray to Krishna to just tell me what I want and who I am,coz I freaking dont know! I am SO thankful for everything he has blessed me with in this life..so many things that I take for granted..but I would love some clarity right now. I am going to have such fun crying myself to sleep tonight!! Yay!

I know EXACTLY how you feel! It's crazy - you think the workplace is going to be so much better because people will be more responsible and more mature but it isn't! In fact, it's worse than high school! The backstabbing, cheating, trampling on people because they're hungry for more power... It just never ends! I went through so much shock when I graduated and started working. The real world is just so cold and so different from what I expected. So far, it has been a huge disappointment. Like you, I used to come home crying everyday after work. I wouldn't have time to take my lunch breaks or even bathroom breaks! The corporate world is just cruel and it's all about money. There is no value for ethics or social responsibility whatsoever! There are verses in the Gita which say that a learned person is not disturbed by either happiness or distress, that a learned person looks at everyone with an equal eye. I think you know these things already, and I think you also know that these things are quite hard to do, especially when the heart or mind is troubled. But nevertheless, we must keep trying. If it helps, try to think of it as Krishna wanting you to be there and working for him. You are not working for your boss - you are working for Krishna. This used to help me get through my bad days.

I'm so sorry that you're going through all of this. I really hope and pray that Krishna gives you the strength to face this and to overcome it. I pray for his guidance in your life. I hope that Krishna helps you to remember that you are there to perform your duties and those who try to sabotage you shall never prosper, for you are on Krishna's side. Dear Krishna, please give your devotee clarity and help her to rise up above these trials. Please change and make her work environment better so that she can fulfil her duties to the best of her ability. Most of all, please stay close to her and be with her always, giving her your guidance and offering her your loving friendship, as only you can.

If you want to talk a little more, feel free to send me an email. Hope things get better for you!

Mahamantra Piano Tune

A very kind devotee has asked me to share with you a piano composition of the Hare Krishna Mahamantra, which is her rendition of another composition. I haven't heard it yet but perhaps those of you who play the piano can try it out and post your feedback! Enjoy :)

He Is Everything You Need Him To Be

There's just something about Krishna. Sometimes, I stand in front of the poster I have of him up on wall, and I start to pray, and while praying I just look at his sweet face and I feel like everything is going to be alright. I feel like he's really listening, and that he is smiling right at me as if to say he's always going to be there for me and he's going to sort everything out in time. I really just love how I can talk to him like I would to a friend.

There are different types of relationships people can have with Krishna: Some see him as a parent, some as a child, others as a friend, master or lover. I have mostly seen him as a friend. I think that the way people see Krishna reveals what they want from life. For instance, women often tend to see Krishna as a child. Over the past few years, I have lost many many friends and I have lost the ability to confide in people. I have lost my confidence and often feel like no one is able to accept me as I am or even understand me. I have often felt like I had no one to talk to. During these times, I talked to Krishna and poured my heart out to him. My relationship with him is like that of Arjuna and Krishna - one where two people can exchange conversations and always be there for each other. It's interesting how Krishna manifests himself in our lives and becomes what we need him to be, just like he promised in the Gita in one of my favourite verses:

But those who worship Me with devotion, meditating on My transcendental form--to them I carry what they lack and preserve what they have.         BG 9.22

Because I have felt this a lot over the past few years and feel it so strongly right now, I know that there are many of you out there reading this who feel like you have lost yourselves. To those of you who are feeling empty and feel like you are lacking, remember this verse. Whenever those feelings come back, think of this verse and remember that Krishna will be everything that you need him to be and he will carry whatever you lack and make you whole. 

Welcome!

Hey guys!

Welcome to my new blog! Hope you like the look of this one! Please update my new blog address in your bookmarks folder and be sure to follow! The button is on the right side of my blog.

I haven't updated my blog in a long time. I owe you guys an update.

A couple of months ago, I was really busy with some work. I was out of the house pretty much all day and was exhausted so I didn't have the time to update my blog. After that, I made a trip to the doctor. Many of you know that I have OCD and several food intolerances which mean that I have a very restricted diet. It turns out that I have a parasitic infection which is a result of food poisoning I had 3 years ago, when these problems began. From 2008 - 2011, there were 3 incidents where I got either food poisoning or a stomach virus. After the third time it happened, the stomach troubles began. The doctor said that it was not treated completely and is the reason I'm always in so much pain. The inside of my stomach and lower intestine is inflamed as well, which means that they are super sensitive now and makes it harder for my body to digest food well. Because of this, I have had to start eating eggs. My bones have become very weak and I am unable to get the protein I needed due to food intolerances. The doctor was trying to persuade me to eat meat but I can't do that!

Oh yeah, and she also said that I have way too much anxiety and stress which only makes matters worse.

So the past few months have been spent in treatment and concentrating on getting better. I'm still unemployed. I'm not even thinking about work right now. With all these medicines I have to take and so many doctor's appointments, I wouldn't have time to do both. Just as well, it's getting difficult in Dubai now. Things are becoming more expensive, jobs in my field are hard to come by, and I find that companies just seem to have no proper values. The more people I meet, the more I see how exploitive companies can be. Oh well, I'm going to concentrate on writing and try to build a career in that. Maybe with Krishna's blessings I will be able to build a career doing something I love!