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I haven't updated my blog in a long time. I owe you guys an update.
A couple of months ago, I was really busy with some work. I was out of the house pretty much all day and was exhausted so I didn't have the time to update my blog. After that, I made a trip to the doctor. Many of you know that I have OCD and several food intolerances which mean that I have a very restricted diet. It turns out that I have a parasitic infection which is a result of food poisoning I had 3 years ago, when these problems began. From 2008 - 2011, there were 3 incidents where I got either food poisoning or a stomach virus. After the third time it happened, the stomach troubles began. The doctor said that it was not treated completely and is the reason I'm always in so much pain. The inside of my stomach and lower intestine is inflamed as well, which means that they are super sensitive now and makes it harder for my body to digest food well. Because of this, I have had to start eating eggs. My bones have become very weak and I am unable to get the protein I needed due to food intolerances. The doctor was trying to persuade me to eat meat but I can't do that!
Oh yeah, and she also said that I have way too much anxiety and stress which only makes matters worse.
So the past few months have been spent in treatment and concentrating on getting better. I'm still unemployed. I'm not even thinking about work right now. With all these medicines I have to take and so many doctor's appointments, I wouldn't have time to do both. Just as well, it's getting difficult in Dubai now. Things are becoming more expensive, jobs in my field are hard to come by, and I find that companies just seem to have no proper values. The more people I meet, the more I see how exploitive companies can be. Oh well, I'm going to concentrate on writing and try to build a career in that. Maybe with Krishna's blessings I will be able to build a career doing something I love!
Welcome to my new blog! Hope you like the look of this one! Please update my new blog address in your bookmarks folder and be sure to follow! The button is on the right side of my blog.
I haven't updated my blog in a long time. I owe you guys an update.
A couple of months ago, I was really busy with some work. I was out of the house pretty much all day and was exhausted so I didn't have the time to update my blog. After that, I made a trip to the doctor. Many of you know that I have OCD and several food intolerances which mean that I have a very restricted diet. It turns out that I have a parasitic infection which is a result of food poisoning I had 3 years ago, when these problems began. From 2008 - 2011, there were 3 incidents where I got either food poisoning or a stomach virus. After the third time it happened, the stomach troubles began. The doctor said that it was not treated completely and is the reason I'm always in so much pain. The inside of my stomach and lower intestine is inflamed as well, which means that they are super sensitive now and makes it harder for my body to digest food well. Because of this, I have had to start eating eggs. My bones have become very weak and I am unable to get the protein I needed due to food intolerances. The doctor was trying to persuade me to eat meat but I can't do that!
Oh yeah, and she also said that I have way too much anxiety and stress which only makes matters worse.
So the past few months have been spent in treatment and concentrating on getting better. I'm still unemployed. I'm not even thinking about work right now. With all these medicines I have to take and so many doctor's appointments, I wouldn't have time to do both. Just as well, it's getting difficult in Dubai now. Things are becoming more expensive, jobs in my field are hard to come by, and I find that companies just seem to have no proper values. The more people I meet, the more I see how exploitive companies can be. Oh well, I'm going to concentrate on writing and try to build a career in that. Maybe with Krishna's blessings I will be able to build a career doing something I love!
Drainpiper ! It has been a while :)
ReplyDeleteI was wondering how you were doing. Now this parasitic infection as well ! That is really sad , Dp :(
Im sure Krishna will understand if you have to start eating eggs or maybe even fish ? Krishna. I feel so distant from him .
Take care girl . Keep us posted. And get well soon..love you :)
And u are in my prayers btw . Hare Krishna.
Hey! So good to hear from you!
DeleteYup, I'm kind of okay with eating eggs now - I realized they're never going to hatch since they are unfertilized. It took a lot to convince myself but I've adjusted now.
Thanks for your prayers! Stay in touch! Let me know how things are going with you :)
Hello, this is me, the girl who posted as "Jai Shri Krishna"! Thanks for updating the blog with your sincerest answers. They really lifted my spirits!
ReplyDeleteWhat you described must be so hard for you. There is probably a lot of pain for you! I surely will pray to Sri Krishna to bless you!
I understand, Drain Piper. It's like really hard to go with egg, even though you know that is not vegetarian. But, tell you what. The chick (yolk) itself gets the protein from egg white, so the white part is just as healthy, I believe. In fact, upon research, I have learned that egg yolk is fattening and unhealthier than egg white, for people. If you don't have to eat the yolk, you won't be eating "meat" - like, the actual animal. But if the doctor recommends for you to eat the yolk as well as egg white, then I guess it is okay. I mean, Krishna will understand.
What happened with me was: I quit meat for six months, after which my family made me eat meat, eggs, etc. After a few months of this, I felt so guilty and so bad, but I prayed to Krishna for forgiveness in helplessness, as my parents just wouldn't listen! Finally, I was like "Mom, I'm not going to eat meat. I know you want me to, but I don't. So I won't eat it." And I don't disrespect elders, but I had to get my point across. And they listened.
My point here is: Krishna understood, and he gave me strength. I am going to post the advice you gave me back to you: Ask Krishna for help. He will help you, for you are one of His dear devotees.
Another thing, about your stress: After getting into middle school, I got in a really big depression. Like really big. I even developed bodily.... ah, let's just call it ailments. But after I learned about Krishna Consciousness, and I started to desire Krishna, every time some hard time comes (believe me, they will come - I guess until one becomes a pure devotee), I think of the lotus feet of Krishna. And I think of serving Him, and in that way I forget my pains. Or I simply think of Lord Krishna's holy name for a few moments and then carry on the task, trying to remember Krishna. Every time something painful comes up, think Krishna.
As for employment, again, it is up to Sri Krishna's will. As I said before, you are in my prayers. Perhaps you are not ready for job, and if you work, maybe you will get too much stress - which might worsen your conditions. You yourself said to me that Sri Krishna is Your spiritual master, and friend. He surely cares about you and is doing the best for you. Maybe this is His mercy upon you to get you to write to others and in this way do service to Him, by thinking of Him as you write and helping His dear children.
Remember, jobs are material. Not having a job will be a struggle in this modern, impure society, but at least you get more time with Krishna! He is doing best for you, though it may not seem like that right now. He is your father. He is my father. He is everyone's father. I will pray to Him for you, as well as all who have requested such. Though it sometimes seems, our Father has not forgotten us. He remembers each and every one of us. Let me describe this:
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ReplyDeleteWe are on the road of life. We have left the cities (Kingdom of God) and entered the road. There are dents (sad points) and bumps (happy points) on this road. Sometimes it is smooth, and sometimes it is not. And although we have left against Krishna's wish, Krishna is still holding our hand, for we are His children. But we are leading the way. When there is a fork in the road, we choose. Sometimes we choose the road leading into dark shadows and twisty paths. Other times we lead into the sun. When we let go of Krishna's hand, we stumble over all the rocks in the paths and experience great pains, but when we call to Krishna, he, out of His causeless mercy, holds our hand, pulls us up to our feet, and lets us go on again. Sometimes he guides the way for us: out of trouble, in to bliss, when it is in His will. But it is only in His will when we please Him greatly. We are conditioned souls; we probably will take a long time to get to the stage of being worthy of pleasing Him. But we can try. Because Lord Krishna is there to oversee us, and help up when He thinks best.
I wanted to see Krishna so badly, but I know that I can't, not unless it is in Krishna's will. So I have to satisfy myself with His pictures and stories and Holy Name. Same goes for you: be satisfied. Accept this as a blessing of Krishna, that we, being all impure, deserve much worse than this, and Krishna has eased some of our pain, due to being our kind friend.
Well.... maybe I am just ranting (and this is really long!), because I am nowhere close to a pure devotee. Sorry if any of this is against what you believe (if it offends you or anything, because I don't mean it to do so)... It's funny, that I knew the answers to the questions I asked you all along, but I needed someone to say them to me. I think everyone needs such, one time or another. And I guess that is just what friends are for!
And remember, Sri Krishna is everyone's greatest and truest friend.
All glories to Sri Krishna, Srimati Radharani, and His Devotees!
Hare Krishna!
With Best Regards,
Shriya S.
Hi Shriya,
DeleteThank you so much for the encouraging message. It really did make me stop for a moment and pray to Krishna, and surrender everything to him. I just finished telling him that I am now leaving everything in his will and surrendering everything to him. You see, the biggest source of my troubles is the fact that I am not a citizen in the country I live in. I am trying to leave and go to a better country but I am finding it difficult. But like you said, I must leave it all to Krishna's will.
You're right - sometimes we do know the answers we have been seeking all along. We just need to hear it from someone else! And today, you told me the things that I needed to hear. Thank you for that :)
I'm glad that this helped you pray to Krishna! Oh, Dubai... things over there are so hard! But I'm sure Krishna will help you out of this situation at the right time: the time that it is in His will.
DeleteThe problem with the mind is that it doubts itself... a lot. But if one hears from another, then the doubt is cleared and the fact gets situated in the heart, where the Supersoul resides. And that just makes our day, doesn't it?! :)