There's just something about Krishna. Sometimes, I stand in front of the poster I have of him up on wall, and I start to pray, and while praying I just look at his sweet face and I feel like everything is going to be alright. I feel like he's really listening, and that he is smiling right at me as if to say he's always going to be there for me and he's going to sort everything out in time. I really just love how I can talk to him like I would to a friend.
There are different types of relationships people can have with Krishna: Some see him as a parent, some as a child, others as a friend, master or lover. I have mostly seen him as a friend. I think that the way people see Krishna reveals what they want from life. For instance, women often tend to see Krishna as a child. Over the past few years, I have lost many many friends and I have lost the ability to confide in people. I have lost my confidence and often feel like no one is able to accept me as I am or even understand me. I have often felt like I had no one to talk to. During these times, I talked to Krishna and poured my heart out to him. My relationship with him is like that of Arjuna and Krishna - one where two people can exchange conversations and always be there for each other. It's interesting how Krishna manifests himself in our lives and becomes what we need him to be, just like he promised in the Gita in one of my favourite verses:
There are different types of relationships people can have with Krishna: Some see him as a parent, some as a child, others as a friend, master or lover. I have mostly seen him as a friend. I think that the way people see Krishna reveals what they want from life. For instance, women often tend to see Krishna as a child. Over the past few years, I have lost many many friends and I have lost the ability to confide in people. I have lost my confidence and often feel like no one is able to accept me as I am or even understand me. I have often felt like I had no one to talk to. During these times, I talked to Krishna and poured my heart out to him. My relationship with him is like that of Arjuna and Krishna - one where two people can exchange conversations and always be there for each other. It's interesting how Krishna manifests himself in our lives and becomes what we need him to be, just like he promised in the Gita in one of my favourite verses:
But those who worship Me with devotion, meditating on My transcendental form--to them I carry what they lack and preserve what they have. BG 9.22Because I have felt this a lot over the past few years and feel it so strongly right now, I know that there are many of you out there reading this who feel like you have lost yourselves. To those of you who are feeling empty and feel like you are lacking, remember this verse. Whenever those feelings come back, think of this verse and remember that Krishna will be everything that you need him to be and he will carry whatever you lack and make you whole.
Hello Blogging up the Drainpipe , i have been following your posts for more than a year now , and your posts are very nice. Recently you posted how you like to read about and listen about Krishna rather than simply chanting , and also this post , i can relate very much to both of them. I have come to realize the same thing about Krishna , its so hard to live in this world isnt it ? Every day i keep thinking when i could meet him personally someday , it doesnt matter how many lives it takes , but thats all i want , i have secretly asked him that if i meet him again someday , then i must never be separated from him again. I see him as a friend , lover , elder brother and father to me , and even he can take the role of a mother. I wonder if we can have so many roles with him or only just one , i feel like a child sometimes ! I havent been able to devote as much time to him as i should be , as there are so many other responsibilities he has given to me. But only he can give the motivation , wisdom and strength to me , to fulfill them , i have prayed to him to take complete control of my life and soul. Sometimes i also feel very guilty that i dont remain steadfast and dont pray to him daily , but even then there is not a single moment in my life when i am not thinking of him. I also feel grateful now even for the hardships that came in life (like you said about people not being good and caring) , everyone leaves when you cant give them what they want , but Krishna just smiles as if assuring us that he is always there. I feel so bad , how could i have pained his heart and come to this world , leaving such a beloved Krishna behind , and he came with me even into this world , never leaving me. He is really very kind and loving and beautiful. I feel very ashamed and everyday think how can i tell him i am very sorry. But sorry is just a word , and by leaving him i have done something which should perhaps never be forgiven.I also want to tell you that by reading your posts it seems that you really try also and you should never lose heart or hope. I also have to eat onion and garlic to keep my health better although i prevent eggs. I also try to control pessimism , fear and anger which sometimes overtake me , but Krishna always gets me out of those emotions , he is always very patient and kind. I think he is bhagwan not just because he has all the beauty , strength , wisdom , opulence , renunciation and riches , but i think because he can love the most unconditionally and deeply , that is his deepest quality. I wish i could just be with him very soon , i love him very much.
ReplyDeleteHello Saurabh. Thanks for the comment. It made me happy to know that you have been enjoying the content on this blog for so long :)
DeleteI really like what you said about how he is God not because of how powerful and wise he is, but because he can love unconditionally. I really liked that, so thank you for sharing.
Living in this world is very difficult. Everything is just temporary - especially our time on this earth. Sometimes it feels so pointless. Why do we have to go through all this? I have no idea. But the one thing that makes me find sanity in all this madness is the fact that no matter what happens, at the end we will all go back to Krishna. This is the reason I love Krishna. Other faiths often say that if we don't follow Krishna we will go to hell and be in hell forever. This never made sense to me. But with Krishna, we get second chances and no matter what, we always to back to him in the end! That's his love :)
Hello!
ReplyDeleteI just read your new posts today. I'm so sorry that you've dealt with food intolerances and stomach problems. I'm not sure if you're able to eat dairy but if you are then creamy foods are helpful when the stomach is inflamed. White rice is soothing too. Please don't feel bad about having to eat eggs. The most important thing is to a pure heart devoted to God.
I hope you post often. It's interesting and encouraging.
Take good care.
Rose.
Hi Rose! So good to hear from you again! :) Yes, the doctor did tell me that ghee would be very beneficial. I was tested positive for an allergy to dairy but my new doctor says that I should be able to handle it in small amounts so I'm hoping to bring it back into my diet soon! And oh yeah, I completely agree with you - the most important thing is a devoted heart. Everything else is secondary! I'm not so worried about eating eggs anymore, after I learned that they are unfertilized and will never hatch. That makes me feel a little better.
DeleteThanks for the comment! Hope everything is going well with you! :)
Lovely post, Dp :)
ReplyDeleteNot to sound dramatic , but i feel perpetually lost ! Hah, thats why i picked the name Lost Gopi ! Sometimes it even seems strangely funny to me , Lol. And sometimes a little scary :-o
Im now trying to find some kind of balance , and just let it be. Im not very good at it though :)
Lol, me too! I always feel so lost and confused about everything! And like you, I am also trying to just let it go and take it one day at a time. Easier said than done lol
DeleteBeautiful post! There is a wonderful relationship with you and Krishna! May it always get stronger :)
ReplyDeleteI'd like to talk about a point that you mentioned, that you see Krishna as a very close friend. You see, I see Krishna as a friend too, and so I can also relate to such. Just as you do, I also talk to Krishna. Of course I chant whenever I am able to, but my actual prayer, I believe, is when I pour my heart out to Krishna.
And Krishna responds in different ways - each time better than the one before! This never ceases to amaze me :)
I also like the point that one of the other devotees mentioned - that Krishna loves unconditionally, and that such is what makes Krishna even more beautiful and attractive. I agree with DP, that in this world, one of the most comforting things to know is that one time, sooner or later, we will all go back to Krishna.
Like many others, I've also always wanted to be physically next to Krishna. Sometimes I just zone out and remember some of the cute pastimes of Krishna, and wish I was actually there. Other times, I wish that Krishna was physically next to me always. Like if I'm studying for a test, Krishna sits next to me and helps me study. If I get something good to eat, I want Krishna to grab some food off of my plate and eat it. Or when I feel sad, I want Krishna to console me. When I feel happy, I want to share the joy with Krishna. And, I admit, I want to sometimes fight with Krishna, because the moment of resolving the fight is so nice! When Krishna is tired, I want to massage him. When Krishna is hungry, I want to feed him. When Krishna is dissatisfied, I want to satisfy him. Basically, I want to spend my life close to Krishna - where I can serve him, and he can be with me.
Sometimes I also see Krishna not only as a friend, but also as an elder brother who is protective and loving. That would make me Krishna's younger sister. Because then I can share with Krishna, as well as serve, and be close to.
Recently, I have physically felt Krishna's special affection. I have had a very dear wish of mine fulfilled - a dream come true :) And every time something good happens, I can just imagine Krishna smiling at me, and I just know that he did it just for me.
All these miraculous events occur when you surrender unto Krishna and let him decide whether or not he wants to do what we want him to do. Because, when we leave everything up to Krishna, he always takes the right action.
I remember the story of Uddhava and Krishna. Uddhava felt proud of knowing about Krishna's supremacy and, for that, he wanted to be known as Maha Rishi. He even asked Krishna such, but Krishna said that he would decide later. When he met Radha, however, he saw within her pure love, and Uddhava felt humbled. Then, later, Krishna said he wanted to talk to Uddhava about calling him Maha Rishi. Uddhava said that he no longer wanted the title and only wanted to serve Krishna. Krishna was pleased, and he said that because of this desire to serve Krishna, he was going to be known as Maha Rishi.
Krishna always fulfills the desires of his devotees, as well as corrects them - when the time is right. So let us all surrender unto Krishna, for where there is Krishna, there is never even a slight chance of failure.
Hare Krishna!!
You are very right about surrender. So many times I have asked Krishna for things but haven't received them - but as soon as I surrender truly from the heart to his will, he either fulfils my desire or gives me something better! And this has happened to my friends too! I guess he is teaching us to surrender to him and to trust his will at all times!
DeleteOh yes, definitely. Krishna is teaching us all to completely trust and surrender unto him. He's showing us that by doing so, the only thing that can happen is success!
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